I recently decided at the beginning of my summer that it was time for a life re-haul. I've been sitting a rut as of late, and it's been bothering me a lot. I do the same thing day in and day out, and it's boring. I need some spontaneity and a change up in the things that I do on a daily basis.
I craft a lot, I read a lot, and I enjoy doing little things. So I decided "hey, i'll start an Etsy and see if I can bring in extra money that way while spreading joy through the things I create. Well that's all fine and dandy, except for people just seem to simple "like" it and not want to buy it. Which creates a dilemma... "do I continue, or do I give up like I always do?"
Well the answer to that question came when I realized, that while I'm changing my life, I realized that I'm afraid of success. Like I know that i'm capable of achieving all of these great things, i'm just scared of if I do.... then what? So i've decided that I would much rather live my life with "oh wells" than "what if's." Because let's just be honest, who really wants to look back on their life and go "well, what IF I had done this? what IF I had done that?" I would rather it be an "oh well that didn't work, let me try it this way."
I never thought I would be a "what IF" person, but surely that has changed since high school. Part of me is in a comfort zone, and I don't want to leave it. But yet another part of me, says to myself on a daily basis, "come on, get out there, do something different with your life." So I'm answering the part of me that is calling me out of my comfort zone. God didn't just create us to live in our comfort zone, He fills us up to send us out to do His will, not our own. If i'm to just stay complacent and just sit in my comfort zone I will never be able to spread His love to anyone but myself, and i've already been saved by grace.
So this Summer 2011 is going to be different. I'm getting out of my comfort zone and going on adventures and not just sitting at home in my room, reading, sleeping, crafting, all of that. I'm getting out there and spreading God's love to those who haven't heard it, need to hear it again, or just need a gentle reminder that God is always there. I also realized that I don't take NEARLY enough pictures to document the things that I do and the people that are important to me in my life. That's about to change too. This Summer 2011 is about me in a way, but it's also about God and the thankfulness in my heart that He has chosen to save ME, by His wonderful grace. I know I am loved by a God that created all things, other people should know of Him and His great love for the nations.
Until next time... this too shall shape me <3
