It's All in the Timing.

Some people tell you to pray about your situation, others tell you to do what your heart tells you to do. I'd have to say I agree with the people that tell you to pray about your situation. The only catch that comes with that, you actually have to listen to what God says. Interesting concept, yeah I know.

In the past 8 months, i've prayed about a lot... and gotten a lot of answers... that I didn't like. So I did what most people do, I ignored what God said and instead did what I wanted. All that did was make me more miserable about the situation than I already was. So, I tried doing what God laid on my heart and told me to do, and found that once it was done, I was so much happier. I learned that everything relies on God's timing and not your own.

If I had listened 8 months ago to what God was telling me through prayer, I may have been happier a long time ago. Needless to say, listen to God when you pray. He's telling you what you NEED and not what you WANT.

Anyways, something else I learned over the course of the last 8 months that life is too short to worry about the things that make you unhappy, that laughter is the best medicine, laugh until you cry, laugh because it feels good, laugh because it's what you want to do, but always remember to smile too. Take chances, seize opportunities, sing in the shower, jump in rain puddles, do something you're afraid to do, fall in love again, do something nice for someone you don't know, take a drive just to enjoy the scenery, and take a day make no plans and see where life takes you. Because... "twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do." - Mark Twain

Learning to Look at the Bright Side of Life

As of recently I started to realize that I was only focusing on the negative parts of my life... well when you do that, you aren't a whole lot of fun to hang out with. I realized that I was bringing down other people as well as myself. So naturally I started to re-evaluate what I wanted from my life and where I stood with myself and God.

Yes, i've been through a lot, and yes not all of it has been good, but it hasn't been bad enough to complain about. I've been given so much to be thankful for in my life. I have a wonderful family who loves me very much and has been there with me through thick and thin. I have a best friend whose more like a sister to me and still loves me even when i'm a jerk. I have a "little sister" who reminds me that life isn't always serious. I have awesome friends who I wouldn't trade for the world because they mean everything to me. I have a heavenly Father that will never leave me even when I don't live like I should. With all of that said I really have nothing to complain about.

The last six months have been me taking a good look at myself and realizing that i'm okay with being me. I don't want to change for anyone. I'm okay with being a dork, being able to laugh at myself, being able to be open and sincere about my feelings, and telling people what I really feel. I'm me. I text way too much. I love the rain. I love cloudy days. I love cuddling. I love hanging out with people who make me laugh. I love going to college. I love where I go to college. I love my job. I love long drives. I love to laugh. Basically it's the simple things in life that make me happy. It doesn't take much to make me happy anymore and that's what I've realized. As long as i'm grateful for what I have in my life and I live each moment like it's my last and enjoy what i've been given there's nothing that could get me down. One more thing I've learned in the last six months... smile always. There's never a reason not to smile. There's always beauty in the breakdown.

"Never frown, because you never know who might be falling in love with your smile." :D

P.S. Longer Letter Later