As of recently I started to realize that I was only focusing on the negative parts of my life... well when you do that, you aren't a whole lot of fun to hang out with. I realized that I was bringing down other people as well as myself. So naturally I started to re-evaluate what I wanted from my life and where I stood with myself and God.
Yes, i've been through a lot, and yes not all of it has been good, but it hasn't been bad enough to complain about. I've been given so much to be thankful for in my life. I have a wonderful family who loves me very much and has been there with me through thick and thin. I have a best friend whose more like a sister to me and still loves me even when i'm a jerk. I have a "little sister" who reminds me that life isn't always serious. I have awesome friends who I wouldn't trade for the world because they mean everything to me. I have a heavenly Father that will never leave me even when I don't live like I should. With all of that said I really have nothing to complain about.
The last six months have been me taking a good look at myself and realizing that i'm okay with being me. I don't want to change for anyone. I'm okay with being a dork, being able to laugh at myself, being able to be open and sincere about my feelings, and telling people what I really feel. I'm me. I text way too much. I love the rain. I love cloudy days. I love cuddling. I love hanging out with people who make me laugh. I love going to college. I love where I go to college. I love my job. I love long drives. I love to laugh. Basically it's the simple things in life that make me happy. It doesn't take much to make me happy anymore and that's what I've realized. As long as i'm grateful for what I have in my life and I live each moment like it's my last and enjoy what i've been given there's nothing that could get me down. One more thing I've learned in the last six months... smile always. There's never a reason not to smile. There's always beauty in the breakdown.
"Never frown, because you never know who might be falling in love with your smile." :D
P.S. Longer Letter Later
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