I recently decided at the beginning of my summer that it was time for a life re-haul. I've been sitting a rut as of late, and it's been bothering me a lot. I do the same thing day in and day out, and it's boring. I need some spontaneity and a change up in the things that I do on a daily basis.
I craft a lot, I read a lot, and I enjoy doing little things. So I decided "hey, i'll start an Etsy and see if I can bring in extra money that way while spreading joy through the things I create. Well that's all fine and dandy, except for people just seem to simple "like" it and not want to buy it. Which creates a dilemma... "do I continue, or do I give up like I always do?"
Well the answer to that question came when I realized, that while I'm changing my life, I realized that I'm afraid of success. Like I know that i'm capable of achieving all of these great things, i'm just scared of if I do.... then what? So i've decided that I would much rather live my life with "oh wells" than "what if's." Because let's just be honest, who really wants to look back on their life and go "well, what IF I had done this? what IF I had done that?" I would rather it be an "oh well that didn't work, let me try it this way."
I never thought I would be a "what IF" person, but surely that has changed since high school. Part of me is in a comfort zone, and I don't want to leave it. But yet another part of me, says to myself on a daily basis, "come on, get out there, do something different with your life." So I'm answering the part of me that is calling me out of my comfort zone. God didn't just create us to live in our comfort zone, He fills us up to send us out to do His will, not our own. If i'm to just stay complacent and just sit in my comfort zone I will never be able to spread His love to anyone but myself, and i've already been saved by grace.
So this Summer 2011 is going to be different. I'm getting out of my comfort zone and going on adventures and not just sitting at home in my room, reading, sleeping, crafting, all of that. I'm getting out there and spreading God's love to those who haven't heard it, need to hear it again, or just need a gentle reminder that God is always there. I also realized that I don't take NEARLY enough pictures to document the things that I do and the people that are important to me in my life. That's about to change too. This Summer 2011 is about me in a way, but it's also about God and the thankfulness in my heart that He has chosen to save ME, by His wonderful grace. I know I am loved by a God that created all things, other people should know of Him and His great love for the nations.
Until next time... this too shall shape me <3
Friday, June 3, 2011
Thursday, April 14, 2011
It's been awhile. A ton has changed. I'm a new person. My friends are different. My life looks different. I'm different. A lot is well, different.
It's taken some time but i've finally gotten to a point in my life where different things matter to me. Like for instance, the people in my life, i've decided to deepen relationships with. I've decided that different things need my attention now that i'm older. Life isn't alway just fun and games anymore. There's money to worry about, there are grades and figuring out what i'm doing with the rest of my life, and many other things. People sometimes ask me, "why are you worrying about that now? you have your whole life to worry about that." It's not that i'm worrying about things that I shouldn't be, I'm just looking at the world from a different point of view. Through more grown up eyes.
Since i've started investing more of my time into the people that are important in my life, i've started to notice different things about my friends and family. I have friends that feel completely alone in a world full of people, I have friends that are so outgoing they turn people away, I live with people that love me unconditionally, at school I live with people that make me laugh so much my stomach hurts, every stinking day, and I have grandparents that love me more than I will ever understand. All of these people mean the world to me, so it makes me wonder why i'm JUST NOW realizing how important these people are to me.
I go to a University that is committed to the Great Commission. They frequently mention missions, and going out into the world to spread God's love and his word to those that may not even know, or have ever heard the name Jesus Christ. What does this have to do with this post you might ask? I'll tell you. They talk about going OVERSEAS frequently. Well I frequently tell my mom, yes that's great that they want people to go overseas and help, and for us to save the starving children in Africa. Don't get me wrong, I think it's wonderful that we have people willing to do that and give from God's love. But what about the people here? What about the people in our streets that are without food and water, and without a home, and the starving children on our streets? What we don't realize is that sometimes God doesn't call us overseas, sometimes he calls us into our own backyards. If we were to open our eyes and look around we would see the desperation in people's eyes.
People lie, we all know that. People plaster on smiles to hide the hurt and the pain of everything that has ever hurt them. People fake it just so they don't have to deal with everything that is going wrong in their life. People hide it to help other people that are hurting instead of dealing with their own pain. I feel like God has laid it upon my heart to go out into my backyard. It breaks my heart to listen to conversations around me and hear the pain and suffering that everyone feels. Our worlds are crumbling but no one wants to admit it. What would happen if everyone reached out and did something nice for three people every day. THREE PEOPLE EVERY DAY! Imagine how quickly we could change the world.
Ok, I realize i've been all over the place, I just hope when this is read someone gets something out of it.
I have so much love in my heart, and I just want everyone to feel it. God's love is never ending and his grace endures forever. I pray that someday everyone will know God's love and find a reason to smile even when their hearts are breaking, because they know God's love.
:D
It's taken some time but i've finally gotten to a point in my life where different things matter to me. Like for instance, the people in my life, i've decided to deepen relationships with. I've decided that different things need my attention now that i'm older. Life isn't alway just fun and games anymore. There's money to worry about, there are grades and figuring out what i'm doing with the rest of my life, and many other things. People sometimes ask me, "why are you worrying about that now? you have your whole life to worry about that." It's not that i'm worrying about things that I shouldn't be, I'm just looking at the world from a different point of view. Through more grown up eyes.
Since i've started investing more of my time into the people that are important in my life, i've started to notice different things about my friends and family. I have friends that feel completely alone in a world full of people, I have friends that are so outgoing they turn people away, I live with people that love me unconditionally, at school I live with people that make me laugh so much my stomach hurts, every stinking day, and I have grandparents that love me more than I will ever understand. All of these people mean the world to me, so it makes me wonder why i'm JUST NOW realizing how important these people are to me.
I go to a University that is committed to the Great Commission. They frequently mention missions, and going out into the world to spread God's love and his word to those that may not even know, or have ever heard the name Jesus Christ. What does this have to do with this post you might ask? I'll tell you. They talk about going OVERSEAS frequently. Well I frequently tell my mom, yes that's great that they want people to go overseas and help, and for us to save the starving children in Africa. Don't get me wrong, I think it's wonderful that we have people willing to do that and give from God's love. But what about the people here? What about the people in our streets that are without food and water, and without a home, and the starving children on our streets? What we don't realize is that sometimes God doesn't call us overseas, sometimes he calls us into our own backyards. If we were to open our eyes and look around we would see the desperation in people's eyes.
People lie, we all know that. People plaster on smiles to hide the hurt and the pain of everything that has ever hurt them. People fake it just so they don't have to deal with everything that is going wrong in their life. People hide it to help other people that are hurting instead of dealing with their own pain. I feel like God has laid it upon my heart to go out into my backyard. It breaks my heart to listen to conversations around me and hear the pain and suffering that everyone feels. Our worlds are crumbling but no one wants to admit it. What would happen if everyone reached out and did something nice for three people every day. THREE PEOPLE EVERY DAY! Imagine how quickly we could change the world.
Ok, I realize i've been all over the place, I just hope when this is read someone gets something out of it.
I have so much love in my heart, and I just want everyone to feel it. God's love is never ending and his grace endures forever. I pray that someday everyone will know God's love and find a reason to smile even when their hearts are breaking, because they know God's love.
:D
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