It's been awhile. A ton has changed. I'm a new person. My friends are different. My life looks different. I'm different. A lot is well, different.

It's taken some time but i've finally gotten to a point in my life where different things matter to me. Like for instance, the people in my life, i've decided to deepen relationships with. I've decided that different things need my attention now that i'm older. Life isn't alway just fun and games anymore. There's money to worry about, there are grades and figuring out what i'm doing with the rest of my life, and many other things. People sometimes ask me, "why are you worrying about that now? you have your whole life to worry about that." It's not that i'm worrying about things that I shouldn't be, I'm just looking at the world from a different point of view. Through more grown up eyes.

Since i've started investing more of my time into the people that are important in my life, i've started to notice different things about my friends and family. I have friends that feel completely alone in a world full of people, I have friends that are so outgoing they turn people away, I live with people that love me unconditionally, at school I live with people that make me laugh so much my stomach hurts, every stinking day, and I have grandparents that love me more than I will ever understand. All of these people mean the world to me, so it makes me wonder why i'm JUST NOW realizing how important these people are to me.

I go to a University that is committed to the Great Commission. They frequently mention missions, and going out into the world to spread God's love and his word to those that may not even know, or have ever heard the name Jesus Christ. What does this have to do with this post you might ask? I'll tell you. They talk about going OVERSEAS frequently. Well I frequently tell my mom, yes that's great that they want people to go overseas and help, and for us to save the starving children in Africa. Don't get me wrong, I think it's wonderful that we have people willing to do that and give from God's love. But what about the people here? What about the people in our streets that are without food and water, and without a home, and the starving children on our streets? What we don't realize is that sometimes God doesn't call us overseas, sometimes he calls us into our own backyards. If we were to open our eyes and look around we would see the desperation in people's eyes.

People lie, we all know that. People plaster on smiles to hide the hurt and the pain of everything that has ever hurt them. People fake it just so they don't have to deal with everything that is going wrong in their life. People hide it to help other people that are hurting instead of dealing with their own pain. I feel like God has laid it upon my heart to go out into my backyard. It breaks my heart to listen to conversations around me and hear the pain and suffering that everyone feels. Our worlds are crumbling but no one wants to admit it. What would happen if everyone reached out and did something nice for three people every day. THREE PEOPLE EVERY DAY! Imagine how quickly we could change the world.

Ok, I realize i've been all over the place, I just hope when this is read someone gets something out of it.

I have so much love in my heart, and I just want everyone to feel it. God's love is never ending and his grace endures forever. I pray that someday everyone will know God's love and find a reason to smile even when their hearts are breaking, because they know God's love.
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